“…I woke up on the plane.. I woke up to the stars reflecting off of my soul. I woke up to the horizon of my home. The clouds down here are symmetric, full, and healthy. The sunrise rose more confident then it does in the states…” – Except from my journal.
Words can not explain.
You know, this trip changed and saved my life and my creativity.
This year has been extremely difficult for me and the ones I care about. Financial situations, death, you name it. We’ve all been through it. Stepping outside of the United States made me gain much more than a “perspective”. I gained perspectives every single day here in Brooklyn before I left for South America. I was initially waiting for something to strike the core of my heart, and completely change the way I saw people, the world, and myself. That happened. I pretty much got wrapped around in a Epiphany, and it held me tight until I threw up all the negative feelings that were lurking in my body. All the insecurities, bad feelings/energy, depression that was surrounding my crown before I left is completely gone. Those feelings will never disappear though. I’m still human. We are still human. I am still completely aware that life will continue to obtain it’s hurdles, but when you fall down you must get back up. If you want something positive to happen within your life, it’s honestly up to you to stand at the foot of the world in order to put positivity within it only to receive it back.
The most exciting part of this trip was learning about my families history. My mother’s maiden name is Valenzuela. My grandfather’s name is Wilfred Valenzuela, and my grandmother’s name is Carmen Valenzuela. The majority of my mother’s side were planted within the Venezuela and Guyana regions. My grandfather emerged from the Wai Wai Tribe who are now located in Guyana and northern Brazil. Let us not forget that that some in my family are Amerindians, and Arawak. The list probably goes on, man.
There is still a lot to learn. It’s weird being back here in the states. Everything seems very claustrophobic, fast, and meaningless. However, you have to learn how to adapt while holding on to the things you learned. You have to live in the present, and the future without being devastated about the past. I hope that we as human beings can overcome the obsession of material things, alcohol, drugs, and parties. I’m sure those things are nice. It shouldn’t be the most important thing. Instead of trying to make it big in NYC, and have your name spread around the grimy streets of this beautiful city. Why not make an effort to make an impact in the world? Why not have your name sweep across the atlantic? Go on google and see how big this world is. What’s in front of you, isn’t all that there is. Open your third eye.
Part 2: Mabaruma Photos soon!